Wasted Prayer

God has more things to care for than words that fall from my lips

Has more mercy for tears that fall from others eyes

Has more love for his children who go to church every Sunday

and I have too many things to do and too little time to spend on prayers for things I need in my life

Steady home, True love, Enough food to eat until my next check

I'll be strong, get by

Do all I need to and not fall to my knees

Nice Mistake

Your skin was soft to my caress

Your lips felt good against my neck

I eagerly believed all your lies

So I could get lost in your embrace

At night I waited for your call

Your words made it easy for me to forget my pain

We spent hours on the phone, talking about nothing

Perhaps I shared too much

Made you believe I wanted something only you could give

I didn't need to be saved

I didn't want you for anything

We had a nice time but now I've been tossed aside

I know I should be mad but I'm not

You were my mistake

A nice mistake that lasted one night

How to Deal with an Asshole

Don't speak to them

Don't waste your time

They'll never change, just play games with your mind

They think they're the best

That they can do what they want

But they're not worth the pain you'll feel in the end

So to deal with a true asshole the trick is to not deal with them at all

Closed Off

Wearing two day old make up without a care,

Listening 2 words but refusing 2 hear,

The worlds closing in but I'm not gonna see,

Hand me a beer and let me be

Normal

I've cut myself again

It makes me forget about my pain within

You said if I was normal things wouldn't be this way

But I was never normal so why did u stay so long with me

You call me all the time

You don't care about the screams in my mind

You run from anything that disputes your life

But life is disruptive and you can't hide from that fact

You tell her sweet lies she happily believes

She's blind to your shady past and now you're guilt free

The blood runs down my arms

I push the blade deeper inside

I want to erase you from my brain

I want to die in your arms

My Secret

I stare at my reflection and see the cracks starting to show.

I've held myself together for so long, I think it’s now time to finally lose control.

I'm afraid I don't know who I am and I'm not sure of what I want.

It’s like I’m two different people in one, both r fighting for what they want.

I stare into the mirror, I’m not sure of what I see.

I feel cold and long to be empty.

I look into the glass and get swallowed by my past.

The old me hates the new me.

I'm drowning in the ashes of the life I used to lead.

I reach out and touch my reflection before I go out to play a role of someone who's not me

Reality

Reality is cold, harsh and strips you of all your hope

Reality is the reason why people kill and steal

Reality is something we all must accept to make it better

Reality sucks

Delusion of Love

Pretty lies

Sweet obsession

I saw it coming but refused to listen

Gentle touch

Passionate lust

I watched it turn to blacken dust

Cold wet tears

Numbing pain

Alone again

Wondering where u went

Damaged Love

Bloodied hands
Wounded heart
I'll keep pretending  
So no one sees

Fire in the eyes
Lust is my sin
I try to walk away
But keep getting pulled back in

Your lies taste good

            But are bitter on my heart
              
            I'm running away
               
            I'm letting it go
            I'm now and forever yours